Blogging For Him

It’s been a long time since I’ve been required to journal for someone. And, given that this D/s relationship is new and it’s still too early to predict where we intend to go with it, I can’t even say I know what I’m feeling about this return to active submission.

It’s long overdue, I think. I’ve missed having someone in my life who takes such an active interest in my well-being. I think for me that’s a lot of what submission is about; answering to the nurturing presence of another.

A strong male other.

He appears to be someone with a kind heart, a serious sense of humour, and a nice lack of tentativeness. This is very refreshing in someone who is relatively new to domination. Very sexy, as well.

It’s been a busy summer for me and so some of this developing D/s relationship has happened long distance.

Ironic really, seeing as he actually lives closer to me just about anyone I’ve dated.

I think the D/s in our relationship developed quite naturally, and maybe even caught us both a little by surprise, although he did know he was seeking a submissive woman when we met.

I’m not sure if he thinks he got more than he bargained for…

::laughing::

Naturally I’m looking forward to exploring where this is going to go but I’m a bit anxious as well.

It seems to be my fate to meet dominants who are new to active D/s, and the teacher in me is not easily suppressed.

How do I not make the same errors in judgement I’ve made before? How do I let him find his own style of domination and still communicate enough of what I need to be sure my own needs are met at the same time?

How do I resist influencing his domination subconsciously as I attempt to move towards a state of emotional transparency? How do I let go of the human desire to arrange things to suit my own needs and wants?

It’s a lot to think about.

The good news is, he is an easy man to talk to, to share with, and so perhaps we can avoid this pitfall together?

Time will tell.

Meanwhile I’m glad I heard his voice tonight, being a whole continent apart right now is tough. And yet, this New York trip has been so wonderful. I’m enjoying every minute of it…

Especially when I can boot up my laptop at the end of the day and share my daily adventure with someone who’s company I enjoy every bit as much as I suspected I would the night we met.

Now, off to bed, I have a museum to conquer tomorrow and possibly thunderstorms as well.

What happened to summer?